Living in the Gray

Once the inconceivable happens and you find a way to survive it, anything else seems possible.

If something you never imagined could happen actually happened, how would you react?

Would you either a) close your mind and stop believing or would you b) be open to other things you never thought possible?

Neither answer is right or wrong. It’s an answer each individual must answer when placed in an “impossible” situation.

Since Buddy had his brain surgeries, I’ve had at least 3 paradigm shifts.

I’m not even sure those words encompass the changes.

I knew who I was.

I’d spent 30+ years being me so I was pretty sure I knew who I was.

But did I?

Was I finished figuring that out?

Not by a long shot.

I’ve learned that the foundation of who I was still remains. I’m still a farm girl who loves animals, is fiercely loyal to her family, close circle of friends, and who loves to be outside and be active. I still believe that God created us and that Jesus is my Lord and Savior.

I’m still a healthcare professional who strives to use my knowledge to help people feel better. Those skills are just expanding to include new tools.

I’m no longer afraid to think outside the box.

It no longer has to be black or white.

Gray is defined as ….

1. of a color intermediate between black and white, as of ashes or an overcast sky.

2. dull and nondescript; without interest or character.

And I’m learning to live in the gray.


I’m allowing myself to change. It doesn’t matter who else does or doesn’t recognize it. I’ve given myself permission!

Kutless – That’s What Faith Can Do

Life is so much more than what your eyes are seeing…

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