Memories and Scars
You never know what is going to trigger a memory.
Whether it’s a happy one or a sad one.
Sometimes the flood of emotions can catch you off guard.
My husband had hernia surgery which is supposed to be a simple procedure.
But it’s still surgery.
And it’s still painful.
Watching him in pain in the recovery room when he tried to get up and got nauseous and had the chills was hard to watch.
I don’t like seeing him in pain and feeling helpless.
I also didn’t like the reminder of my c-section with Buddy. It’s occurrence and my lack of recovery was obscured by Buddy’s seizures and transfer to the NICU within hours of his birth.
The physical scar has healed nicely but apparently I had much more of the emotional scar to work through than I realized.
Has this ever happened to you?
You think you’ve dealt with something and all of a sudden it rears its head?
It’s better to give it to God and ask him to heal the pain and the trauma than to try and push through it yourself like I did.
I only ended up making it harder on myself, on my husband, and on my kids.
I was angry, tired, and snippy for no good reason.
I needed to ask for strength and for healing and not try to do it all by myself.
How often do I forget His grace, mercy, and power? How often do I need reminders?
Thankfully He is also forgiving and aware of the human struggle!
Voice of Truth – Casting Crowns